HE IS HOME!!!

     I am so excited! he is just as handsome as I remember!!! And just as funny! And just as sweet! And I am so nervous.... I don't know what to say... I feel like I'm 14 again and he is my first crush. Incidentally my first crush was a boy a year older than me who tended to work in the theater's set design department, wear leather jackets, and smoke clove cigarettes. I had a major crush on him for four years.... Back to Cliff... He is amazing. I can't believe he is actually home!!! And what do i do with myself now?!!? 

Coming Home

     As most of you know Cliff will be coming home on Monday. I'm nervous. I'm scared shitless actually. I'm painting my toenails because its pretty much the only thing about me that looks girly. I bite my fingernails far too badly to try and paint them. I'm chubby, my hair has gotten a little long and my roots have started to grow out. I haven't had time to work out so I haven't lost any weight since he left. I wanted to do so many things while he was gone. I wanted to impress him with how I looked when he got back. 


     Well, it looks like he'll be sadly disappointed with my progress. Or... I am sadly disappointed with my progress. He has never once said anything about me other than the fact that he thinks I'm gorgeous and he has troubles keeping his hands off me. So maybe I am being silly. Maybe I am being more than silly. I don't know! I just don't know anymore... I'm all sorts of worried that he's going to see me waiting in the airport and finally see all of the flaws that I see in myself and go "So.. I'm going to spend the Holidays at X instead of with you. It was fun, but I'm definitely over this." I'm pretty positive I would just kinda burst into tears then and not stop for hours..... 


     I've been cleaning the house all day, it looks pretty fantastic. Well, the front of it does. I still need to tackle my bedroom and the bathroom. Other than that, I've picked up and neatened things. Put things away. Organizing goes a long way considering I haven't been home to do more than eat and sleep in the past... two months. So other than scrubbing the bathroom and vacuuming my room the house is done. Which would be nicer, but now I have two more days to fill with things... And I can only waste so much time. I mean, I could study for finals, and I will be doing some of that tomorrow, but I feel like I'm going to go crazy before Monday night. 


     Seriously though, I'm going to be standing in the airport like an eager puppy and he's going to blow right past me. I just know it. I'm freaking out. 

ALL OF THE THINGS!!!

     I HAVE DONE ALL OF THE THINGS!!!!!! I had a list of things that needed accomplished by today for the entire week and they have ALL BEEN ACCOMPLISHED!!! I am amazing. I am so cool! I am super productive and I am an excellent cuddler. No, that last one has nothing to do with my list, but its true so I figured I would put it out there. 


     So this post is mostly just a "Yay for being productive" post. Actually.... Oh! No! One more thing! I GET TO PICK CLIFF UP ON MONDAY! That's right! I get snuggles ALL MONDAY NIGHT!!! *does the happy cuddle dance* And now that I've posted this I'm going to get a call Monday saying the Army has changed things and he's not coming at all... But! I can be hopeful that things will actually work out and I get my boyfriend back!! 


     Yep! That was it for tonight!